I am the worst mom ever

So I have to apologize to you right away and let you know how horrible I feel about what happened this morning. When you were smaller we used to wrap you up like this and put you on the couch to sleep, b/c that's where you were most comfortable. Lately, though, you've turned into a squirmy worm and have managed to get out of your blankey cocoon. So, we've been putting you in your crib to sleep instead of on the couch.

Well, Grandma Michelle came to stay with us for the week, and she is sleeping on the air mattress in your room, so I put you on the couch last night. I put your big pink blankey near you so you wouldn't roll off. You went to sleep just fine and woke up at 5:00 am instead of your usual 3:00. So way to go on sleeping longer. I gave you a bottle, went back to bed, and fell deep asleep.

Then I awoke to a HORRIBLE noise, and my mother's intuition just knew right away what had happened...you had fallen off the couch. I ran into the living room and you had sure enough squirmed out of your blankey, skooched your way past the pink blankey and had fallen off. I was sick about it and had the worst feeling in the pit of my stomach and heart. I ran and picked you up and just started bawling.You were screaming, b/c I think it scared you since you were in a deep sleep. I just sat and rocked you and held you and cried right along with you. I feel SO BAD about it and vow that it will never happen again.

You cried for about 2 mintues and then finally calmed down and I gave you a bottle and just sat and rocked you and watched you fall asleep. Then I went in and put you in bed with Dad and me in the middle so I could make sure you were OK.

In talking to Dad and others about it, they all say it happens and what am I going to do when you get hurt from just running around and playing? I'll probably just be a basket case and wrap you in pillows like in the picture and make you wear a helmet everywhere. Just kidding, but I do want you to know I'll try my best to protect you. Once again, sorry that you fell off the couch, and I'll be more careful and cautious with you since you are one of my most prized possessions.